past

dearest jessie. there is nothing much to say at this point in our relationship, but despite that i want to let you know what you will always be a part of me. the past nine years have been hard on both you and i... and you're right... i think we now have come to the dreaded moment but somehow guiltily want. you have been a supportive partner to me. you were always there to somehow save me in my dire moments. thank you. as for our family, may god help our children become better people than we are, may they have bright futures ahead ful of opportunities and happiness that you and i lacked. i am still the same amy as you found me years back... and i think you are just going to leave this relationship as is. be happy and start living your life my love. do not be afraid of being alone because you know that your children will always be there and so will i if you ever needed me. you are now fre from your promises and responsibilities t me. once gain, thank y0u for giving up your life for nine years to better this family. its now time to take your life back. always, amy. "when everything ends and your life begins".

i found this letter i wrote to jessie a few years ago with some old files. i guess our relationship has not changed much since then. still here fighting ... still destroying each other within. more pain, more tears ... losing hope, strength and will.