sinking

last post may - whoah. its been a while. whats the update - nada much. same shite different day. all in all hub and i are alright. we do still have our days tho when it looks as tho we would slash each others throat. im kinda in a rut rite now. ive decided to go back to skool - part time only - a compromise i made since i dont want the kids growing up remembering - mom wasnt there most of the time. haay. the skool that i wanted to get in to - do not offer it part time - i just found out. so now im waiting - hoping nothing else would go wrong. thou weve talked about this thing - still - theres that iffie feeling - and that feeling holds me back - its been for years now. the guilty feeling - the fear - that what you mite do mite cause the break up of your relationship. im just kinda lost rite now. moping. thinking. ** show me a sign **